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I was falling

Into the infinite below

Or was it the depths of

My own evil,

I do not know.

My hand broke my fall,

It pained,

The same hand

Which inflicted on you so much pain.

The path ahead of me

Was dark.

Was it the darkness

In my heart it signified,

Or was it the simple

Absence of light,

I do not know.

This is the same heart

Which coaxed me to give you

So much pain

I stood where I fell,

Looking at my few options,

Thinking about them

With my mind.

The same mind which

Planned the pain

I gave you.

Helplessness dawned over me,

Showing me that the

Only way is forward,

My only future was to

Walk through.

I walked and walked,

Not knowing my way,

Not certain of my goal,

But held on to the last straw of hope,

That it would lead me to you.

A cold breeze swept

Through the path.

Strange voices calling

Out to me,

Troubling me,

The same way I did to you.

The surroundings became

Ghastly,

Did it signify my evil deeds,

Or signal the oncoming of the devil

To take me away?

I do now know.

Even with all the

Pain I inflicted on you,

You never left me,

Never gave up,

Always re-iterating,

How great our friendship

Is.

Looking back now,

I could only shudder

At all my past actions.

But all I could do

Was walk ahead.

I was scared,

Not at the

Uncertainty of my future,

But at the prospect

That I’ll never

Meet you again.

The sound of my own

Footsteps haunted me,

Sending a very human

Chill up my spine,

Which I’m sure you’ve felt,

So many times.

Your silhouette

Only reflected your purity,

Always so quiet, so calm

So composed,

Always nurturing what you had.

You were always blooming

Under the sun,

Always soaring high

Into the infinite,

Your shadow dancing on the ground.

I do not know what I was

All this time,

But certain I was

The one causing you pain.

You were the embodiment

Of light,

Spreading hope and joy

Where ever you went,

Extinguishing darkness,

Replacing it with light.

If only,

My voice could reach

back through to the past,

I would tell you

How much I miss you.

If only

You could give me

A sign that I would

Meet you again,

Show me that path,

I would walk on spikes,

Run through fire,

Carve a path through hell,

Give up my life,

If only you would give me

A sign.

My emotions took over me,

And tears trickled down my cheeks.

Why this happened

I do not know.

As I continued forward,

Wondering whether we

Will meet again or

Not.

The breeze,

Still as strong.

Maybe I’m dreaming,

But I could see

Ten millions of small lights,

Fireflies,

Flying all around,

Extinguishing the darkness,

Replacing it with light.

Is it you my friend,

Or am I dreaming?

I do not know’

‘And the fireflies came

Closer to him,

Re-arranging themselves into

A figure he longed for

So much.

His smile grew larger,

Brightening up his face.

Their hands reached out once more,meeting,

And eventually he collapsed,

Knowing that he had reaches

Paradise.

Was all this that happened real

Or an illusion?

All taking place in his mind,

he does not know

And neither do I’ .